Waiting... - 01

Waiting is the hardest part.
Waiting is what really kills you.
Waiting is what breaks my heart.
Waiting is gonna kill you, too.

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When someone you love is lost, waiting for them to return is always worse than when you lose them in the first place.
It's when you really, really, really need to find them. But. No matter what you do, you can't. No matter how much you cry or how loud you scream, you can't find them.

It's when you're laying in your room, defeated, that you realize they're never coming back.

And you hate yourself.

Because it's a relief.

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My gramma passed away a few weeks ago. She's been suffering for that past 5 years, totally unable to do anything for herself. When she passed away, it was, surprisingly, more a relief and a happy feeling than a sad. ^^ Kinda weird, but it was. I wasn't afraid to answer the phone when my grampa called, 'cause I knew it wouldn't be that call.

^^ I took these a while ago, but I hadn't uploaded them because life's been busy. When I was going through them, I narrowed it down to these three, because they kind-of fit what I'm feeling about my grandma. ^^ Enjoy.